On October 12 my horizon changed from surfing happy and free to being dumped off the surfboard, falling into the dark deep. It's been a wrenching journey. I no longer can think beyond today. There is no place now for imagining because fear brings me to the worst. For now, I am sustained by swimming in the depths of His mercy. He doesn't fail to answer my questions, or to give me peace. His gifts come each day as I pick out an ugly thorn of bad attitude in obedience to His command to love others no matter what, to thank Him no matter what, and to trust Him.